Billy Joel opens up about affair that led to two suicide attempts

This story discusses suicide If you or someone you know is having thoughts of suicide please contact the Suicide Dilemma Lifeline at or - - -TALK Billy Joel is sharing the bulk haunting chapter of his life a chapter that nearly silenced his music forever The Piano Man singer who is presently battling a brain disorder revealed in the first part of his documentary Billy Joel And So It Goes what led him to attempt suicide twice and fall into a coma When the musician was in his early s Joel was part of a small band called Attila with his best friend Jon Small At the time he moved in with Small his wife Elizabeth Weber and their son according to People BILLY JOEL CANCELS ALL CONCERTS DUE TO BRAIN DISORDER IDENTIFICATION Bill and I spent a lot of time together Weber confessed in the documentary according to People She added that their friendship was gradual and a slow build Joel eventually informed his best friend I'm in love with your wife I felt very very guilty about it They had a child I felt like a homewrecker Joel admitted in the documentary which premiered at the Tribeca Film Festival on Wednesday I was just in love with a woman and I got punched in the nose which I deserved Jon was very upset I was very upset The betrayal not only ended Joel and Small's friendship at the time but also dissolved their band Attila Consumed by guilt and depression Joel's personal and professional life unraveled as he began to spiral I had no place to live I was sleeping in laundromats and I was depressed I think to the point of almost being psychotic Joel explained in the documentary So I figured 'That s it I don t want to live anymore ' I was just in a lot of pain and it was sort of like why hang out The next morning is going to be just like nowadays is and in the current era sucks So I just thought I d end it all BILLY JOEL IS 'NOT DYING' DESPITE RARE BRAIN DISORDER DIAGNOSISJoel's sister shared in the film that she was working as a curative assistant and gave him sleeping pills to help with the restless nights But Billy decided that he was going to take all of them he was in a coma for days and days and days she emotionally commented I went to go see him in the hospital and he was laying there white as a sheet I thought that I d killed him While Joel acknowledged that he had been very selfish during the tumultuous time he recalled his first thought when he woke up from his coma was that he demanded to attempt suicide again During Joel's second attempt at suicide he ingested lemon Pledge a furniture polish Miraculously he survived both attempts after his friend Small rushed him to the hospital LIKE WHAT YOU RE READING CLICK HERE FOR MORE ENTERTAINMENT NEWS Even though our friendship was blowing up Jon saved my life Joel explained in the documentary His friend Small added He never really stated anything to me The only practical answer I can give as to why Billy took it so hard was because he loved me that much and that it killed him to hurt me that much Eventually I forgave him CLICK HERE TO SIGN UP FOR THE ENTERTAINMENT NEWSLETTERFollowing the second suicide attempt Joel shared that he had felt like a lost soul and admitted himself to an observation ward There he confronted his inner demons and began the long road to recovery The singer called the experience life-changing and was published several weeks later I got out of the observation ward and I thought to myself You can utilize all those emotions to channel that stuff into music Joel declared Joel and Weber reconnected and eventually tied the knot years after the affair The couple were together from until